I guess you didn't know this but me and Abstraction broke up!!!!! Last summer!!!! Well, I mean, I've been feeling like kind of confused for a long time, like years. I'm friends with all of A's friends and stuff, and I think A's really cool and I totally learned a LOT from A--but you know what? I don't want to say anything bad about A, but I have to TOTALLY MOVE ON with my LIFE. I started to really feel like A's been holding me back and even like kind of manipulative. I mean, when I moved to NYC it was kind of incredible to get to know A … but you know what? I am super worried that when you get really to the core of things, A is just super conceited and can't talk to me. I feel really bad saying this but I KIND OF WONDER sometimes if A is just DEAD INSIDE. I don't know, maybe A is like a meal ticket for me. I mean, I get invited to a lot of shows and things because of A, but when I'm there, A just kind of talks to other people. Like I don't feel A can really concentrate on one person at a time-A always addresses the whole room, if you know what I mean. I mean, it's not like Representation even knows I exist either. I feel like when I come into the room, R is like all glassy and actually really conservative; it's a weird feeling, too. But anyway I just started to feel like I can't be tied down and I have to play the field. I guess all of you know that I was always like that and totally non-monogamous, but that's why you didn't hear from me all winter. I totally learned a lot from A, and I even got to be friends w/ Cézanne who I didn't even LIKE before and now I like totally, like, LOVE, and I super love Cubism, (I am so mad at my friend Kerstin in Berlin because she doesn't even LIKE Cubism but I feel like Cubism is like so amazing. It's basically a diagram, if you know what I mean.) OH, and also, I never would have understood Process without A but I just feel like A's really old friends are just WEIRD. And kind of pompous? Or something? Well, anyway, I feel really bad telling you this, like you'll be pissed, but I hope you know this has nothing to do with you and I really love you and the part of A's friends that are really open like you are AMAZING and everything. But basically I kicked A out of my studio this summer, and afterwards I felt really good. I had this amazing fling, don't tell anyone, but I had this fling with this face, and I don't know, that was the straw that tipped the iceberg and I just went with it. I feel like me and A can be good friends after a while, though, and I am super hoping that all of A's friends will still be friends with me, but, sometimes I almost kind of wish, you know, I was sleeping ALONE. You know what I mean????
At MOCA Jacksonville, we didn't “kick A” out by any means. Instead we invited A in and asked it to spend the summer.